TEARS AND A SONG

Author: LeE

Classification: H/M

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimers: DPB and CBS won JAG and it's characters. I don't. Just 
borrowing them for some fun.

Spoilers: None, really.

Summary: I think the title is enough to give you an idea. Don't be 
lazy. Read the whole story.....:)

Author's Note: This is just a short little piece that I thought of 
today while I was in class (hey.. I'm allowed to daydream during 
lectures..:))  Now, if something like this could only happen in the show for 
real!! :) The song I used is called "Flying without Wings" sung by 
Westlife, from their self-titled CD "Westlife"....I've always loved this song 
because I always imagined Harm singing it to Mac....Enjoy...


JAG HQ
1000 EST

The day had been uneventful at the office. Actually, uneventful was not 
a good enough word. It had been plain boring. However, Harmon Rabb Jr. 
had much to think about. One hundred percent of his thoughts were about 
a certain Lt Colonel who had a grip on his heart he couldn't deny any 
longer. It had been eating him up all week, and hearing that song hadn't 
made it any easier to deal with. 

"That damn song" he said to himself trying to concentrate on the 
paperwork in front of him. It wasn't an easy task. Ever since he had seen 
Mac, that day in the Rose Garden, he'd had trouble concentrating on work 
when he knew she was around. Why he was still good at his job? Oh, that 
was because Mac challenged him and believed in him. Without her as a 
friend he wouldn't be here. He knew it, and apparently everyone else did 
too.

"Excuse me?" Mac asked from the door when she heard him talk

He jerked his head up at the sound of her voice. "Uh, Mac. Have a seat"

She shot him a confused look but complied. Once she was seated she 
started her cross-examination. "So, Harm. Tell me. What song was it that 
you were cursing just right now?" she said with a raised eyebrow.

"Maaccc....do you really want to get into this? You know how things end 
up with us when you decide to analyze me" he said smiling nervously, 
hoping to get her off the subject.

"Yes, I do. Usually I end up pointing out mind blowing, painfully 
obvious truths and facts to you, Counselor" she said and smiled. He didn't. 
She continued.

"Ah, come on Harm. Even tough I'm *kidding*, you know I'm right. You 
always mess up the most important things in your life, and if it weren't 
for me pointing them out to you, God knows what would be of you today" 
she said and chuckled. This was all very amusing to her. To Harm, 
however, it was embarrassing, to say the least. He decided he wouldn't let 
her beat him this time. She wanted mind blowing, painfully obvious 
truths? Well, she was about to get one of them. She asked for it.

"Sarah, do you really want the truth?" he said with a soft low voice 
that chilled her to the bone. His eyes pierced into hers and she froze 
completely. She had only seen a look that intense in his eyes once 
before. Australia.

"Ha..Har...Harm?" she finally managed. "What are you talking about?"

He laughed softly, his eyes still gazing deep into hers. He stood up, 
closed the door and hit the blinds. 

Sarah Mackenzie had never felt so vulnerable in her whole life. Well, 
maybe in Australia, but that one didn't count. She had walked right into 
that one. This time, though, it hadn't been her fault. She came into 
his office hoping to talk to her best friend and relieve some stress, and 
instead, she was in for the experience of her life, or so it seemed. 

Harm walked back to where she was sitting and slowly knelt in front of 
her, his eyes never leaving hers. He grabbed her arms and unfolded them 
from the position they had been in around her waist. He leaned a little 
more into the chair and wrapped his arms around her waist, hugging her 
as if his own life depended on it. His head rested against her chest. 
After a few moments, the shock wore off and she hugged him tight to her.

"Harm, are you alright? Is it Sergei? Palmer? Are you in trouble?" she 
said, concern coming through clearly in her words.

"Oh, I'm in trouble all right" he said and sighed. She was confused

"What do you mean you're in trouble?"

"Well, you see. I'm afraid I've just made a fool of myself"

"What? How could you make a fool out of yourself?" She tried to 
disentangle herself form his embrace to look at him, but he hugged her tighter 
and whispered, his voice ruffled by her uniform "Don't let go. Not yet, 
please"

To say that Sarah Mackenzie was surprised was the understatement of the 
year. Something really awful must have happened to him, she thought. 

"Harm, tell me what's wrong" she pleaded with him

She felt him smile against her chest. "Sarah, nothing is wrong, and 
that's just my problem. I can't think of a single thing that's wrong other 
than the fact that we're at the office, I'm on my knees, with my arms 
wrapped around you, and you still feel the need to ask me why I'm doing 
it" he said, his voice a deep whisper. 

"What?" she whispered, her voice full of emotion 

"Sarah, I want you to listen to me ok? I heard this song last Monday, 
on the radio. I couldn't get it out of my head. I went and bought the 
CD. I have it memorized and every time I hear it all I can think of is 
how much I love you and how much those words are true in my life"

She tried to speak. "Harm....I don't know what..."

"Shhh" he cut her off. "You don't have to say anything. I can't take 
this anymore, Sarah. It's been almost a year since my crash and your 
almost wedding. I kept thinking we needed time to fix our friendship, and 
we have, but your friendship is not all I want from you. I'm tired of 
waiting for the right moment to do this. You have to know. You have to 
know now. No more waiting"

He heard her breath in deep, but before she could say anything he 
started to sing the song to her.

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be.

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings.

When she heard those words she gasped audibly, and he smiled before he 
continued. "Flying without wings" she thought to herself. Is he telling 
me what I think he is? Before she could reach a verdict he continued 
his musical assault.

	Some find it sharing every morning
	Some in the solitary night
	You'll find it in the words of others
	A simple line can make you laugh, or cry
	You'll find it in the deepest friendship
	The one you cherish all your life
	And when you know how much that means
	You've found that special thing
	You're flying without wings

	So, impossible as it may seem
	You've got to fight for every dream
	'Cause who's to know which one you let go
	would've made you complete?

	Well, for me is waking up beside you
	To watch the sunrise on your face.
	To know that I can say 'I love you'
	In any given time or place
	It's little things that only I know
	Those are the things that make you mine
	And it's like flying without wings
	'Cause you're my special thing
	I'm flying without wings.
	And you're the place my life begins
	And you'll be where it ends, I'm flying without wings
	And that's the joy you bring.
	I'm flying without wings.

The significance of what the song was telling her made the tears run 
freely down her cheeks. So many years of waiting, of dreaming, of hoping, 
of praying, and it had all come down to this. A quiet afternoon at JAG 
and a song that had inspired the love of her life to confess the love 
he had for her. The joy she felt at that moment surpassed any other she 
had ever felt. She never imagined what it could feel like to love 
someone as much as she loved Harm and to have him reciprocate her feelings. 

Her heart was soaring at the words of the song he had just sung for 
her. Everything was right in her world. She knew life wouldn't be a garden 
of roses, but she had a feeling everything would be fine. She had the 
love of the most amazing man in the universe, and that was more than 
enough. 

She hugged him to her as tight as possible and he responded the same 
way. His face was buried deep in her chest. She felt him stir a little 
and heard him start to speak.

"Sarah, there is nothing in this Earth more important to me than you. 
You make me complete, and I'm sorry it took me so long to admit that to 
you. I love you, I always have and I always will. I want the last part 
of that song to be true about you and me, always. I want to wake up and 
watch the sunrise on your face, and I want to be able to tell you 'I 
love you' anytime, anywhere. I want to know every little thing about you 
I don't already know and I want nothing more than to make you mine 
forever." 

She ran her fingers through his silky hair and kissed the top of his 
head countless times. "I love you too, Harm. I love you so much. Thank 
you"

He had confessed to loving her more than he did anything else, 
including his beloved Tomcats. That's what the song was about. She reached out 
with one of her hands and caressed tenderly the side of his face that 
wasn't buried deep in Marine green. Tears escaped his eyes making their 
way down her hand, and at that moment, she knew that Harmon Rabb, Jr. 
was hers, forever. He had finally opened up his heart to her. Yes, with 
tears and a song, Harmon Rabb, Jr. let go.  


THE END!!!! I hope all of you enjoyed it. If you feel like letting me 
know, feedback is always appreciated...:)