Title: Endings I/ First Day of a New Life 
Author: Jagman
Summery: Harm and Mac talk and it doesn't come out
right. Once again Captain Buro. And Lieutenant
Commander Russo are main characters, You shippers
won't like this story(ducking from objects being
thrown lol) time line is this year. but no Commander
Russo in Iraq story line.
Feedback: welcomed  both  positive  and negative just
don't be mean or insulting Biochemexpert@aol.com 
Rating: PG-13 for sexy talk and images.

Endings I/ First Day of a New Life

0630 hrs
April,4th 2003 
JAG Headquarters
Falls Church , Virginia
The elevator chimed and the doors slid open.
Lieutenant Colonel Sarah MacKenzie exited and entered
the bullpen. No one was in yet. "Good" she thought,
"hope Harm comes in early so we can talk". She
proceeded to her office, dropped off her briefcase and
headed for the coffee room. As she was making the
first morning pot of coffee she heard the elevator
chime and footsteps nearing. Harm stuck his head in
"Morning Mac, you're here early". 

"Yes" replied Mac, thought I'd come in early."Hoping
you would too. We need to talk". "Now Mac?", Harm
replied. "Yes now. I figure no one will be in for at
least an hour. I really need to talk". "Ok", Harm
said. "Grab the coffee and we'll use my office".
"Right behind you Harm", Mac said.
When they got to Harm's office he motioned for her to
close the door and take a seat. "Ok, Mac, what's up.
"Harm I'm laying all my cards on the table right now.
I love you", Mac blurted out, Harm just sat there
staring."Well Mac I kind of figured that out some time
ago". He had a sad look on his face. "Thing is Sarah",


Mac tingled at hearing her first name. Harm rarely
used it. He continued on. "Thing is Sarah I cannot say
it back. I'm just not ready yet. Mac was getting angry
already. She thought she would, but not this soon. Mac
stood up and glared at Harm. "Harm, I'm so sick and
tired of dancing around with you. How god damn long do
I have to wait, until hell freezes over?" Harm was
shocked by her reaction, she was fuming. Harm was now
getting angry too. "You know 

Mac, it's always about you. Your schedule your ticking
biological clock, well I'm sick of hearing that. I
mean you'll just have to wait". Mac's eyes were like
daggers stabbing into Harm. "You just can't let go can
you. Day after day something inside won't let you.
Well like the song says Harm, it's now or never".Now
Harm stood up, "then it's never", Harm said trembling.
 "Fine" Mac said and turned to leave. "Wait!" Harm
said but she walked out and said, "goodbye Harm".
Mac went back to her office and picked up the phone ,
First she called the phone company and had her home
number changed, she then did the same with her cell
and pager. After accomplishing these tasks she went to
the admiral's outer office, Petty Officer Tiner was
taking his first sip of coffee and saw Mac approach.
"Morning colonel" Tiner said. "Good Morning Petty
officer", Mac said handing him a slip of paper. "These
are my new phone number, please update my file. And
under no circumstances are you to give them to
Commander Rabb. Do I make myself clear Tiner?" "Yes
ma'am", Tiner replied.  "Is the admiral in?" "Yes
ma'am". I would like to see him Please". Mac said.
Tiner hit a button his phone and heard the admiral's
voice. "What is it Tiner". "Uh Colonel MacKenzie would
like to see you sir"?. "Send her in. Mac entered the
office and came to attention. "At ease colonel. What
can I do for you?" Mac handed AJ a slip of paper, "Sir
those are my new phone numbers, I thought you'd might
like them in case you need to reach me", Mac said.
"Thank you colonel." Mac looked at the admiral with
pleading in her eyes. "Sir I have a request", "what is
it colonel". "Sir could you please not give those
numbers to Commander Rabb?". AJ sighed, he new that
Rabb and Mac were in a difficult time in their
lives."Ok Mac, you have my word I will not give them
to Rabb. He looked into his chief of staff's eyes.
"Problems colonel, anything wrong?", AJ asked. Mac
looked back at him her eyes glazing over. "No sir
something is finally right, today is the first day of
the rest of my life and I want to start with a clean
slate" "I see", AJ said. "Is that all". "yes sir".
Replied Mac. "Then dismissed" "aye, aye sir".
Mac left the admiral's office and headed to the coffee
room. On the way she ran into Bud and Harriet. She
gave them a slip of paper and as with Tiner she
ordered them not to give the numbers to Harm. She got
her coffee and searched out Captain Buro.  She walked
across the bullpen to Al's office. She and Harm and Al
had been friends for years, she even dated Al for
awhile but nothing came of it because of her love for
Harm, They dated before Brumby came along, Mac knew if
she went to Al after Harm pushed her away in Sydney,
it would have worked out and they would have been
married and she would lose Harm for ever. She knew it
wouldn't work with Mic. If Harm hadn't crashed that
night she would have found away to get out of the
wedding. Now she thought, "I"ve lost Harm anyway, and
Al had met Lieutenant Commander Catherine Russo, a
doctor at Bethesda Naval Hospital. Over the past 4
months Mac and Catherine had grown close, close as
sister, in fact Catherine called Mac her sister.
Catherine was the mirror image of Mac. Same eyes same
hair only Catherine was taller. They were good friends
and Mac knew she could go to them both if she needed
anything.
Mac stood outside Al's office, "the door was closed so
he must be busy". She thought but she knocked anyway.
"Enter, she heard. She walked in and closed the door, 
 Al was on the phone talking to the skipper of the
submarine Ohio. Al was a former submariner now
assigned to JAG ops as liaison between JAG and Naval
Intelligence. He motioned for Mac to have a seat and
wrapped up his call. "What's up Sarah", Al never
called her Mac, always Sarah. "I need to talk big
brother, but not here". After years of friendship she
called him big brother and he called her baby sister.
"Anything wrong?", Al asked. "Yeah I had that talk
with Harm Finally". "Nough said" "Can I come over
tonight and talk I mean if it's no bother?".  "Let me
call Cat and see what she's got planned".  Al picked
up the phone and dialed Catherine's number at
Bethesda. A voice at the other end answered.
"Lieutenant Commander Russo". "Hi sweetie" Al said.
Mac smiled at the way he called Catherine sweetie. She
was glad they had met. Al was so lonely the past few
years, except for the time that they dated. She felt
so bad when she told him she didn't love him in the
way he wanted, and was so afraid that she would lose
his friendship. But he got over it, it took a very
long time but he still loved her like a sister and was
always there for her. She watched him smile as he
spoke to Catherine. "Listen hon, I got Sarah sitting
here and she's going through a rough time. She wants
to come over and talk tonight. Catherine asked,
"Harm?". "Who else", Al said. "Alright you know I'd do
anything for her, but tell her one night is not
enough. Tell her to pack a bag, she'll spend the
weekend". "Ok hon, see you later"."Love you",
Catherine said as she hung up.  Al hung up the phone
and looked into Mac's pleading eyes. "Ok baby sister
we're on under one condition". Mac looked confusingly
at Al. "Condition?", she said. "Yes Cat says you have
to spend the weekend"., Mac looked at him with relief
in her beautiful brown eyes. "I was hoping she would
say that Al". Al then got up walked over to Mac and
kissed her forehead. "About 1900 cool with you?".
"Great", Mac replied. She got up looked at Al and
said, "thanks big brother see you then" and left Al to
his work.
Mac walked out of Al's office towards the coffee room
when she saw Harm approach.. "Mac" he yelled out but
she kept walking. "Mac" he said again, "wait" He
grabbed her arm and she gave him that marine glare and
then looked down at his hand on her arm. He saw she
was angry and pulled away. "Mac I'm sorry I didn't
mean to touch you like that", he said. Mac glared at
him again and said with ice in her voice, "touch me
like that again and you will be sorry commander", and
walked away.
Harm walked back to his office feeling hurt and angry,
but not sad. He sat down at his desk and looked out
the window, "What is her problem" he thought. "So I
told her she has to wait and she gets all pissed off.
If she truly loved me she would wait till I'm ready".
He rubbed his eyes thinking he has to talk to her, to
at least keep their friendship even if it was not the
relationship she wanted. He thought, "she's sensible ,
but in the state she's in now I don't think it would
be wise to try and talk to her. Maybe tonight. I'll
giver her a buzz".
Mac threw herself into her work trying to keep her
mind off of this mornings revelation. She had finally
done something right. "Who does he think he is, wait
for him", she thought. "Well no more Mr Rabb, no more
putting my life on hold waiting until he's good and
ready. I want things, I want a home and family and
I'll not ruin my life waiting for Harmon Rabb Jr. No
more". The clock slowly ticked away until it reached
1600 and Mac finally said, "the hell with it I don't
think the admiral would mind if I left early".
1830 hrs
Lt Cdr Russo's home
Silver Spring Maryland 
Catherine stepped out of the bathroom wearing a towel
and headed for the bed room to dry off and get
dressed. Al was in the kitchen making iced tea when
the door bell rang. "I got it hon", Al said heading
for the door. "Well I should hope so bubble head I'm
naked". Catherine yelled from the bed room. Al
laughed. Catherine was always joking and making wise
cracks. He opened the door to see Mac standing there
with a bag and a big white box. "Baby sister come on
in, what's in the box?" "Boston cream pie", Mac
replied. "Umm good. Make yourself at home, I'll put
this in the fridge. Cat will be out in a second", Al
said. As he walked to the kitchen, Catherine emerged
from the bedroom wearing a purple tank top and shorts.
"Mac!" she said, running over to her and throwing her
arms around her. "How are you sis are you ok?"
Catherine asked Mac. "Not really", Mac replied. With
that Al came out of the kitchen and sat on the couch.
Catherine sat next to him and patted the spot next to
her. "Come sis, sit down and tell us what happened".
Al had told Catherine about Harm and Mac's rocky
relationship and she was eager to help her friend.  
"Well I finally told Harm I loved him" Mac started to
explain. "And", Catherine said. "The usual Cath he
said he couldn't return the words and that he didn't
know when he could say them". Tears were rolling down
her cheeks now, and Catherine reached over to wipe
them with her thumb.   Mac went through the whole
conversation between her and Harm. "I finally said to
him , it's now or never. And he said then it's never
and I stormed out of his office" The tears were
streaming out now, and Catherine and Al both hugged
her. "Aww baby sister", Al said stroking her hair
while Catherine hugged her tight. Catherine blurted
out, "what the fuck is wrong with that man?".
Realizing what she said, she put her hand to her
mouth, then said, "I'm sorry Mac, didn't mean to use
foul language". Al laughed, "she curses like a
sailor", he said. That brought a very small smile to
Mac's lips. "Ok Mac", Catherine said, "we'll settle in
talk some more get you feeling better. Mac was feeling
better she got it out and was starting to smile. "Hey
hungry marine here aren't you guys going to feed me?"
she said. "No Mac we're going to let you starve, of
course we're going to feed you. What would you like?".
"Pizza", Mac said. "Pizza it is", Al said. "Don't
forget the meat Al." "Sausage and meatballs?. "Great",
Mac replied. "Ok I'll order, Sarah why don't you pick
a movie out and we'll eat in the living room" "Ok" Mac
said. Catherine told Mac to go into the livingroom and
pick a movie from the shelves next to the TV. When she
got there they heard, "holy crap look at all these
movies". "Yeah", Catherine said, "Al has almost a
thousand tapes, mostly from the forties, fifties, and
sixties. But he has some new ones too". Mac surveyed
the shelves and found a new one she hadn't seen yet.
"Got one" she yelled out. Al came out and asked which
one. "The Sum Of All Fears", Mac replied. "Cool"
Catherine said.  "I love Tom Clancy". "Me too" Mac
said.
After the movie was over and they had their pizza
Catherine got up and said, "Time for coffee and pie.
It's early yet, want to watch another movie Mac?
"Sure" Mac said, "But I want to change into something
more comfortable first". "Sounds like a good idea. Al
you get the coffee we'll change". "Cool", Al  said.
Catherine showed Mac to the spare room and Al prepared
the coffee. Soon Catherine came out wearing the same
purple tank top and a purple thong. She started to
help Al in the kitchen when Mac came out wearing only
the tops to a pair of red silk Pjs Al saw Mac and
said, "uh young lady you forgot the rest of your Pjs"
"I don't wear the bottoms anymore, guess I been
hanging out with Cath too long". "Well I hope you got
some thing on under there". Al said. Mac smiled
sheepishly turned around lifted the PJ top and stuck
out her six revealing a red silk thong. "Nice sis,
nice" Al said. and they settled down to watch another
movie.
2300hrs
Harm's Apartment
North of Union Station
Washington DC
Harm was tossing and turning. He had decided to go to
sleep early but it was no use. Thoughts of Mac kept
him awake, not thoughts about sleeping with her, but
thoughts of how she could be so arrogant. He decided
to give her a call and dialed her number and got,
"we're sorry the number you have reached has been
changed to an unlisted number. No other information is
available". Harm tried again thinking he dialed the
wrong number and got the same thing. He tried six more
times before trying her cell. Same thing. In
frustration he hurled his phone against the wall. It
feel in pieces to the floor. "The nerve of that woman,
changing her phone numbers", he thought. "This is it
screw her", and he went back to bed.
0200 hrs
Lt Cdr Russo's Home
Silver Spring Maryland
Mac had gone to bed two hours ago. Catherine was
working on some fitness reports at her computer, and
Al was watching the SC FI channel. They heard Mac's
door open and she came into the living room. "Can't
sleep Mac?, Catherine said, "yeah I think I need a
belly rub", Mac said without thinking.  Catherine
said, "oh you know about the belly rub". "Yeah I do",
Mac said. "I keep forgetting you two dated for
awhile", Catherine said. "Unless you think it
inappropriate" Mac sighed. Al had this touch, he could
rub a woman's stomach and put her right to sleep. "Not
at all sis, we're all friends here, no harm in a
little innocent belly rub, you know we'll do anything
for you. Al the lady needs to sleep perform your
magic", Catherine said. "Ok baby sister prepare to
enter dreamland",Al said taking Mac's hand and
proceeded to the spare room. He left the door open and
told Mac to get in bed. He then told her, "Uh Sarah
pull your Pjs up. Remember your navel has to be
exposed. "Yeah I forgot". Mac pulled up her top
exposing her thong and navel, but Al didn't even look,
he just  looked in her brown pools of sorrow. "You ok
baby sister", "I will be Al, you and Cath will get me
through this I just know it". Mac said with genuine
sisterly love in her eyes. "I'm so glad you met Cath I
think the world of her. I love her like the sister I
never had.  Catherine was passing by to go to the head
and stopped by the door when she heard them talking.
"You know she feels the same way about you Sarah",. Al
said. "She doesn't get a long with her real sister".
"Oh why not?", Mac said. "She's one of those military
hating liberals". "Oh I see", Mac said. Al continued.
"She even showed up at Cat's graduation from OCS, she
thought she changed, but when Cat walked up to her,
she spit on her uniform and walked away calling her a
baby killer and murderer". "Oh no, how could she call
Cath those things, she's a doctor sworn to save lives,
that was so cruel". Mac said. "Yeah she took it pretty
hard, but she's strong and got over it. So Sarah any
regrets about today". You mean about Harm?" Mac
questioned. "Yes", Al said,
"Yeah I do, I should have done this long ago. I may
have met a nice guy like you and had a family by now".
Al started to rub Mac's stomach, first with circular
motions, then up and down, and she started to relax
she then looked him in the eyes and said, "Al thanks
for being here for me, you and Cath mean so much to
me, your are two of the most important people in my
life, I love you both dearly". Mac said with tears in
her eyes. He continued stroking Mac's stomach, but
stopped. "Before I put you to sleep Sarah I have to
say you're a beautiful woman", Catherine was still
listening by the door, "and you stick with that other
beautiful woman in the other room you'll be beating
off men with a stick", Mac laughed, "who me?, yeah
right", Mac said. Al looked deep into those haunting
brown eyes, the same eyes Catherine had. "Seriously
Sarah, think about it, She knows a lot of lonely
officers at the hospital. She could set you up with
one". "Me on a blind date?' Mac said. She closed her
eyes and thought about it. "Ok, but not for awhile, ok
big brother". "Ok sis", Al said, and started rubbing
Mac's stomach. Before she drifted off she asked Al,
"do you love her?" "Yes I do Sarah","good" she said
and then  drifted off into the most peaceful
comfortable sleep she had in a long time. Al got up
pulled Mac's Pjs back down covering her stomach and
thong and pulled the covers over her and  kissed her
on the forehead and headed for the door.
Catherine was still standing by the door when Al
emerged, a tear in the corner of her eye. When Al came
out and saw here standing there he smiled. "Were you
listening Cat?", Al asked. "I didn't mean to
eavesdrop, I was going to the head and I heard you
talking. Tears started to flow, when she asked, "you
love me?'. Al lifted her chin and looked into her
eyes, mirror images of Mac's. Catherine Lisa Russo, I
love you very much, with all my heart and soul".
Catherine couldn't control herself any longer and
cried like a baby. "I love you too Al, with all my
heart with my very being I love you, and I  love the
way you take care of Mac, she's my friend and sister I
feel so close to her I don't know if that bond is
because we look like each other or what, but I'd give
my life for her and you I love you so much". She
placed her hand over his heart, and looked into his
brown eyes, and said. "There's gold in there, your so
full of love it makes me want to cry. You care for
your friends so much". "Our friends, our friends", he
said leaning his 6' 5" frame down and kissed Catherine
long and tender. When they needed air, Catherine took
him by the hand and led him to the bedroom. "Come on
bubble head lets just cuddle".
End of Part I
Next Endings II/ The Weekend