Name Christmas would not be Christmas without you

Author name melfina-gene-starwind 

This is my first harm and mac fanfic. I would love to
know what people thought so please sent reviews to
melfina_gene_starwind@yahoo.com

Rating PG

Spoilers - None

Disclaimer- I don't not own any of the characters and
please do not flame me. 

 

 

It was a snowy, chilly December evening. Mac was
sitting on her sofa reading a book. She became very
absorbed in it and, before she knew it, it was 10 p.m.
She glanced at the clock on the wall, even though she
really didn't need to. 'Harm is probably on a plane
right now.' she thought. I wish I were with him. She
was supposed to be spending Christmas with Chloe's
family. But, Chloe had a bad case of the flu, along
with her grandmother and her father. So, she wouldn't
be spending this Christmas up North, in a beautiful
house in the woods, with people that cared for her.
She was here alone in her apartment trying to stave
off holiday depression. 

She could not help feeling a bit down. She was on
leave and had nowhere to go. Her bags, which she
hadn't gotten around to unpacking, yet, were sitting
by the door; a taunting reminder of her cancelled
holiday festivities. Her apartment was not even
decorated with Christmas things. She had thought that
it would be no use since she was not going to be here.
Besides, she had been incredibly busy of late...as she
looks around her apartment she decides that it would
help to raise her spirits if she put some Christmas
things up. She would do that tomorrow. Mac got up from
the soft, comfortable sofa and walked to the kitchen. 

She opened the refrigerator, took out some milk and
set it on the counter. After that, she grabbed a
small, silver pot from the cabinet, and set it on the
stove. Turning on the stove, she grabbed the milk, and
poured the cool, white liquid into the pot. As she
waited for the milk to heat up she grabbed some
chocolate from another cabinet. Nothing like a good
dose of chocolate to soothe the desolate soul of a
woman. 

After a few minutes the milk was ready so she poured
the steaming milk into a mug and added the chocolate.
She then turned the stove off and returned to the
living room with her treasure. After placing it down,
she went to her bedroom and grabbed a heavier blanket
and a pillow so she could be as comfortable as
possible. Mac returned to her sofa where she placed
the pillow down and then sat down herself. She covered
herself with the blanket and grabbed the book that she
had been reading. The drink had cooled down a bit by
then and she started to sip it while reading her book.
After about an hour she had put the mug down and had
drowsily drifted to sleep on the sofa. Her dreams were
of Harm. 

********************************** 

6 hours before 

Harm was in his apartment getting ready for his trip
West. He was going to visit his parents, as he had not
seen them in awhile. A secret part of him would have
loved to have Mac make the trip with him but that
would never happen. Besides, she was going to go see
Chloe in Vermont. He thought of the last time he saw
her and how she looked as, he made sure that he had
packed all he needed. 'I wish I had gotten a chance to
say good-bye today but we both got so swamped with
work that there was no time. Damn me and all my
problems. Why can't I get past the fear that I will
lose her if we get close romantically? I love what we
have and I don't want to lose that. What if I take the
risk with this amazing friendship that we have and we
both end up with nothing. We lose the romantic love
and the friendship, too. I couldn't take it. But, I
love this woman. She is the best thing that has ever
happened to me. Maybe things are as good as they can
get the way they are. She doesn't seem to mind that we
are not together in that sense. In fact, things are
perfect now. We go out more then ever and spend as
much time together as we can. I need to stop worrying
about this, if I don't I will not have a ruin
Christmas for my family by being lost in my gloomy
soliloquy.'

While he was tormenting himself with his musings,
musings that had caused many a night of turmoil for
him more times than he'd care to admit, the phone
rang. I wonder if that's mom, checking to see if I've
left yet. He picked the phone that was on the
nightstand.

"Hello..." He stated. 


"Hello Harm, this is Chloe." He wouldn't have
recognized her if she hadn't told him who it was. Her
voice was rough, gravelly and she punctuated the
statement with a cough. She sounded terrible. 

"Chloe, what's the matter? You sound sick." Harm asked
worriedly. 

" I am sick. We all are. We all have the flu, my
father, my grandma and me. I'm miserable. She blew her
nose and coughed again. Listen, the reason I called is
because Mac isn't coming because we are all extremely
contagious. But, I'm worried about her being home
alone for the Christmas. Do you think you could stop
by and check on her before you leave town to visit
your parents?" She inquires.

"How did you know that I was going to see my parents?"
He asked. 

"How do you think I found out? Mac told me. She talks
about you all the time." 


"She does? What does she say?" He asked curiously. He
felt a little guilty about digging, especially since
Chloe shouldn't be talking right now, judging from the
sound of her voice. 

"I don't know if I should say..." Chloe started to
cough raggedly again. 

"That's okay, Chloe. Thanks for letting me know about
Mac being alone. She's very lucky to have a friend
like you." He paused for a moment and decided to trade
in his first class ticket for 2 plane tickets, so he
could ask Mac to spend the holidays with him and his
family. 

"Harm are you still there?" 

"Yes and I have to go. So do you, you shouldn't be
straining your voice like this. I need to finish
packing, go get another plane ticket and invite Mac to
spend Christmas with my family and me. I don't want
her to be alone for Christmas, either. Bye Chloe and I
hope you get better soon." Harm said. 

"Merry Christmas. Oh, and Harm, one question?" 

"Yes?" 

"Are you in love with her?" 


"Well, I...I..."


"If you do then why are you two not together?"

"There are too many implications to that type of
relationship between us that you are too young to
understand." 


"What's here to understand, you love her and she loves
you. Whatever it is keeping you from her is stupid.
Love can get you though anything." 

"Chloe, love is only that simple in the innocent minds
of youth."


"Can you at least tell me one of the reasons you
haven't gotten together?" Harm couldn't believe he was
having this conversation with a pre-teen. A
conversation that he could barely hold with himself
let alone anyone else. He hadn't revealed the fears
behind his reasoning to anyone.


"I am afraid of losing what we have for something that
seems wonderful, but if it doesn't work out would
leave us both with nothing but heartache. She doesn't
need another man to hurt her, and I don't think I
could bear it if I were the one to break her heart
like that again." 

"Think about this, Harm. What if you lost her because
you would not take the chance to be with her. What if
this is your opportunity and you're letting it get
away. It almost happened once. Next time you may not
be so lucky. Well, I have to go. Bye Harm. Tell Mac
Merry Christmas for me." Before he had the chance to
say anything else, he heard a click and then the dial
tone. He put the phone down and finished packing
riddled with 'what if' thoughts.

He could not get Chloe's comments out of his head.
What if I do lose her? What if I am missing my
opportunity? I can't think about this now. I need to
get to the airport and change the tickets. 

****************************** 

Back at Mac's apartment

Mac was fast asleep on her sofa. She was having a bad
dream however it had started out so sweet. She was
dreaming that Harm had his arms wrapped around her.
They were looking at a sunset from a cliff. As the sun
set Harm turned her around and kissed her with so much
passion that it felt real. He then told her how much
he loved her and never ever wanted to be without her.
But then the dream took a turn for the worse. 

The sky turned gray and it started to rain. The ground
they were on started to get very muddy and Harm could
not keep his footing. He fell down with Mac in his
arms. Then they became separated as they struggled.
And they started to slide towards the edge of the
cliff. Mac grabbed on to some rocks and pulled herself
up. Harm was hanging on to the edge of the cliff. Mac
scrambled over to him and grabbed his muddy hand in
hers. She told him that she loved him and to hang on.
She tried so hard to hang on to him but he was so wet
with rainwater that he slipped from her grasp. She was
crying his name out as he fell... Mac awoke with a
start. She was crying and she sat up and hugged her
legs. 



"I wish you were here right now, Harm. I must be
insane. I love you so much, and yet I don't have you.
I don't know how much longer I can take this." She
realized that it was 1 a.m. where has the time gone?
At that moment the doorbell rang. She vaguely wondered
who could be here at this hour. 'Must be the wrong
apartment.' She thought. She got up and went to the
door. 

"Who is it?" She asked trying to sound normal, but
sadness permeated her voice.

 

"It's me, Mac. Harm." When she heard that she unlocked
the door so numb with surprise that she forgot about
the tears. 

"Harm what are you doing here?" She asked while
turning around and trying surreptitiously to wipe the
tears from her eyes. But, she couldn't fool her
observant partner.

 

"Why are you crying, Mac?" He asked while stepping
into the apartment and closing the door behind him. 

"Harm, I'm fine." She stated with an unconvincing
tremble in her voice. She put her head down so he
could not see her face clearly, but it was too late.
He stepped in front of her and lifted her chin with
one hand. He placed the other one on her cheek. He
brushed away a stray tear that slid down her cheek. 


"Come on, Mac. It's me. Your old buddy Harm." She
looked into his beautiful eyes, and the deep concern
she saw there, made the tears begin to flow with more
force than before. He pulled her into his protective
embrace causing her to bury her head into his chest.
And he just held her until she was ready to tell him
what was wrong. After a bit, she pulled back and gazed
at him through a fog of wet eyes.

"I know this probably sound silly, but, I had a
nightmare, and I lost you in it." 

"Mac, I'm right here, and as you can see, I'm fine.
And I'm not going anywhere or at least, not for a few
hours." He said and smiled at her with his most
charming flyboy smile.


"What are you talking about? Why are you here when you
are supposed to be in California?" she asked,
regaining some of her reasoning abilities.

"I should be asking you why you aren't in Vermont, but
since I already know the answer to that, I won't. I
heard that someone cancelled on you and decided to
trade in my first class for two business classes. I
would like you to come with me for Christmas. Will you
come with me? It would make me very happy. You know I
may be spending the holidays with my family but
someone would still be missing." 

"Who?"


"You of course. Not only are you my best friend you're
also the only family I have here." 

"So, I'm like a sister?" She stated straining to keep
a tone of joviality in her voice, while pain clenched
her heart at the impending answer. He picked her chin
up again and bent down to kiss her cheek.

 

"No more crying. No I don't see you like a sister, you
mean so much more to me than that terms like 'sister'
and 'friend' can convey. You know how much I care for
you." he stated with quiet sincerity. Mac smiled up
happily at him. 

"Of course, I will go with you, Harm. I am just happy
that you are here with me. What time is the flight?"
Hearing that from her was for some reason, one of the
sweetest things ever voiced. He hugged her so fiercely
close that he made her breathless. 

"HARM!"

"Sorry. Got carried away there. The flight is at 5 am.
Do you need to take a shower and pack?" He questioned
while loosening his grip so she could breathe again. 

"I need to shower, but my things are still packed. It
won't take me long!" She was about to run to her room
when she turned back to him and kissed him softly on
the lips. 

" Thank you." She ran out before he could do anything.
He sat down on the sofa, waiting for her to shower and
dress, and thought about the intoxicating kiss she
just bestowed upon him. 'If I'd have known I'd get
that kind of thank you, I would've bought the whole
plane out.' 

*********************************************************


A few hours later they were on a plane making their
way to Harm's parent's home. Mac was so excited. She
looked at Harm with eyes shining with such happiness.
Happiness that made her so breathtakingly beautiful,
that it made him what to kiss her right there and ask
her to marry him. But he just could not banish the
nagging voices of doubt in his mind. There was so much
at stake.

But he could not get those damn demons out of his
head, the ones that kept on saying ‘You will lose her
if you get involved with her.’ Harm thought ‘ Why does
this have to happen to me. Why is it taking me so long
to make my mind up? No matter how many times I try to
tell my brain what my heart feels is right; it goes
and does the opposite. My heart says I love her, but
logic makes me afraid of being hurt. If we get
together and it does not work out, then there will be
pain for both of us. Mac will ache with the pain of
another failed relationship, and I don’t think I can
take that; it would ruin out friendship. DAMN IT, I
HAVE TO STOP ALL THIS LOGICAL THINKING OR ELSE NEITHER
OF US WILL HAVE A NICE CHRISTMAS.‘ 

He looked over at his restless partner. Mac could not
keep still; she was too full of anticipation for what
awaited them. Harm was getting weary with trying to
avoid her jostling elbows as she constantly shifted in
her seat. He had to find a way to make her stop, for
it would take them a few hours to get to California,
and he couldn’t take much more. At first he started to
have a conversation with her about some case that she
had just finished with, except that seemed to make
things worse. Mac would be sitting straight up with
her arms at her side, but then she would move to her
side, after that her other side. She could not find a
perfect position to get comfortable.

"Mac will you sit still, we still have a few hours to
go. Get some sleep! Come here." Harm said to Mac as he
placed his arm around her shoulders and pulled her
close to his chest so that she could get some sleep.
He knew that being this close to him would have some
effect on her and would get her to sleep. He loved the
fact that he made this women melt whenever they were
so close. She came closer and looked up in to what
seemed like heaven to her. Her blood started to boil
and her heart raced. It was going a mile a minute. She
placed her right arm over his stomach and her head on
his chest. She could not stop gazing into those eyes
that made her world complete. 

"I love you so much.," she mouthed so softy that she
thought that he didn’t hear those 3 perfect words that
God had made. Those words, which made his heart fill
with guilt, and at the same time with so much
pleasure. Every time she had said them he wanted so
much to take her into his arms and show her the depth
of his love as well. Instead, he placed a kiss on her
forehead and told her to get some sleep. He would wake
her when the time came. "Ok!" Was all she said.

******************************************************

A few hours later they at arrived at California
International Airport. Harm’s parents were waiting for
them at the front gate. Mac was refreshed from the
catnap that she had had on Harm’s strong chest. Harm
on the other hand looked like he had been beaten with
a bat. He had been so restless with Mac laying on him,
and with all his dam haunting thoughts that kept
plaguing him. His mother hugged him with a worried
face. She whispered in his ear "Are you ok?" She
looked at him with eyes that would make you cry. He
mouthed "no" to her. 

"Mom you remember Mac?" He asked right as she was
going to hug his best friend.

"Of course I remember Sarah, how are you doing
darling? I am so glad that you could make it. We have
a room for you that you will love, of course unless
you and Harm….." She looked at Harm to see if she
could go on with what she was going to say, however he
nodded no. "Well, you will like your room."

"Thanks for having me at the last moment; my little
sister came down with the worst cause of flu." She
said with a small smile.

"I think we should get your things and go home."
Harm’s stepfather said. So they gathered their belongs
and went to the house. 

***************************************

The house was set next to the beach, with the most
beautiful view of the sunset. The inside of the house
was all decorated for Christmas. There was red and
green everywhere. You could see a few mistletoe pieces
placed under a few of the doors. 

Mac gazed about with a combination of wonder and joy
as she walked through the door in to this house that
was decorated with so much love. She saw the mistletoe
and wondered if they would kiss under it like they had
a few Christmases ago. She was still shocked that she
was there. Her gaze went to Harm who at the same time
looked her way. They both gave each other a huge smile
that was filled with so much love. It was a smile that
said everything without the need to say what the other
was thinking. 

" I bet that you are tired. I will show you your room
and then you can take a shower. Mean while I will be
cooking super for you hungry animals." Harm’s mother
said. As she was taking Mac by the hand to show her
the way, she looked at Harm. "Harm you know the way to
your room. Dinner will be ready soon so take a quick
shower and clean behind those ears."

Harm glared at his mother and started to walk to his
room, which happened to be right next to Mac’s.

*********************************

As Harm was taking a shower, he couldn’t get Mac out
of his head. He kept imaging that she would step into
the shower any minute with him and make sweet love
with him. However every time this happened, the demons
came back, telling him that if he did such an act with
her that it would mess up their friendship. He was
getting a headache from this. He placed his hands
against the tile on the wall of the shower and leaned
his head on it. "I can’t keep doing this! It’s killing
me, and I’m not even with Mac. Damn it, why can’t I
make my mind up? I know that I love her but the fear
of getting hurt is not going away. I don’t want to
lose her." He screamed out loud, not too loud, but
nevertheless loud enough that Mac heard him in her
room.

With out thinking, Mac walked into his room and waited
for him to come out. She could not wait any more, she
had to tell him how she felt about what he felt and
what he was afraid of. She thought to herself, ‘I can
help him through this fear - all he needs to do is
open up to me.’

"MAC! What are you doing in here?" Harm asked as he
walked into his bedroom with a towel wrapped around
his waist. "Came in here to see me naked?" He gave her
his best flyboy smile that he could get with out
showing her that he had been really distressed

"I came to talk to you." She smiled a little while
getting up from the bed that she had been sitting on.
She had not got the joke. She was too worried about
him.

"Mac what’s wrong; you look worried?" He walked over
to her and put one hand on her shoulder. He looked
into her eyes to find the answer, but all he found was
a longing and what seemed to be tears about to form.
She glared at him and her heart jumped a thousand
beats. 

"I am worried about you! I heard what you said in the
shower." She didn’t take her eyes off of him. He
looked away.

"You heard me, damn it. Mac, I don’t want to talk
about it right now, please." She took her right hand
and placed on his face. 

"Please I want to talk about it. I don't like seeing
you this way. I can-" Harm walked away from her. He
kept his back to her.

"Please leave, I would like to get dressed before
dinner." He asked her. 

"Fine be that way! We will talk about this later." Was
all she said as she headed out of the room and in to
her’s. When she got there, she threw herself on to the
bed and started to cry. ‘I can’t take this anymore. He
is so stubborn and hotheaded. What am I to do with
him?’

Harm was at the bottom of his black abyss. He was more
upset about the way he had just treated her then what
she had found out. Somehow he was glad that she knew.
Nevertheless he didn't know what to do.

*****************************************************

Dinner went by with no huge fight. Harm could not stop
looking at the woman of his dreams. He had to
apologize to her about before. He didn't want to spend
the best Christmas ever like this. Mac on the other
hand only looked at him to see what he was doing, and
of course she got him staring at her. This only made
her hurt more.

After dinner they all went into the living room to
have coffee and talk about how things were at Jag. Mac
half the time didn't know what she was saying; she was
thinking about Harm. Little did she know that he was
suffering from the same lack of concentration.
Finally, someone said something that ended the endless
speech.

"I’m sorry to end the night so early, but I am getting
tired and would like to go to bed." Mac stated. She
looked at Harm as if to ask if he was going to bed as
well, however he didn’t answer. She said goodnight to
everyone.

Not long after she went to her room, Harm followed
suit. He went into his room and changed into his
boxers. He was going to talk to Mac, except that she
was fast asleep when he got to her room. He turned
back and went to bed himself.

************************************

1 a.m. 

Mac tossed and turned in her sleep. The fight that she
had had with Harm had taken its toll on her body and
soul. She was having that same dream as before, the
one where Harm tells her that he loves her. When she
is about to tell him the same, he falls from the
cliff. She can’t hold on to him and loses her grip.
She is crying as he falls to his death. She woke up
with a start, her face all red and covered in tears.
She sat there shivering. ‘Not that dream again, it’s
because of what he said before in the shower.’ She
thought. 

She could not stand it anymore. She had to talk to him
right now or else she was never going to be able to
have an excellent holiday. She got up and went to his
room. He was tossing and turning like she had been.
She walked over to him and placed her hand on his
shoulder to wake him up.

"Harm, wake up." She grabbed his shoulders and shook
him gently. She paused to turn the light on so she
could have a better look at Harm. He woke up with
bright light in his eyes. It took him a few minutes to
get his eyes to adjust to his surroundings, but when
they did, they were focused on the love of his life.
It brought a brief smile to his face that faded
quickly when he saw her red face and swollen eyes
still leaking tears. 

"Mac, why are you crying?" Harm sat up and wrapped his
arms around his partner. She was thrown back at this
and had not excepted him to bury his face into her
shoulder. After recovering from the shock of this
action, she wrapped her arms around him and buried her
face into his chest as she began to shed more tears. 

           After what seemed like ages, Mac stopped
crying. She lifted her head from Harm’s chest and
looked at him with questioning eyes. She didn’t know
how to tell him what she wanted to say without it
coming out wrong. Harm gave her a small smile as he
leaned in and placed a sweet kiss on her forehead. The
taste of her skin was like candy; he wanted so much
more then that. He wondered what she tasted like in
other places. He knew that her kiss was better then
any sweets. The times that he had kissed he had felt
like he was on cloud 9. She felt the same, but at this
moment she was very upset. Harm thought to himself,
‘Why is she so upset?’ Suddenly he hit himself in the
head, drawing a shocked face from Mac. ‘Stupid, of
course she is upset, and it’s because of me! I need to
say something. Damn it, I love this woman.’ He hugged
her again; his arms rubbed her back, which made her
relax against his shoulder. They stayed that way for
about 10 minutes until Harm spoke.

"I am so sorry about before. I had no right to scream
at you that way. I forget that what I said in the
shower does not just affect me; it hurts you more
because I can’t make my mind up." He reluctantly
withdrew his arms and eased her away from him a
little, absently taking her hand and lacing his
fingers through hers. 

"Harm I had that dream again, the one where I lost
you. You fell off the cliff, and I never got to tell
you that…" She spoke rapidly, hardly pausing for
breath before she trailed off. Harm listened patiently
to her, never once letting go of her hand. He was
always touching her in some way. It made her feel
better, and she felt safe to say what she needed to.

"Mac, go on - I am listening. You really never told me
about the dream. Can you please tell me about it?" She
nodded and continued.

"Well, it starts out on a cliff. We are watching the
sunset, and you have me wrapped in your arms." Mac
looked down at the floor, a bit embarrassed at what
she was saying. She was usually never this shy about
discussing something so imitate, but it was different
with Harm. He made her act so differently then how she
was at work. She never acted like this with any of her
other guys, friends or otherwise. She turned bright
red like she was on fire; she could feel her blood
boil, and her heart raced so fast that not even a
cheetah could catch up.

Harm started to laugh - he could not help himself. He
had never seen his Marine this way. She was acting so
much like a girl. He gave her his flyboy smile. 

"What are you laughing at? This isn’t funny!" Mac
snapped and slapped his arm in play. 

"I’m sorry, but you are turning bright red and that’s
just not like the Marine that I know." 

"I am still a female, and I do have feelings." She
started to turn her face away. 

"Oh, come on, I was just kidding! You take things too
serious." He said while grabbing her from behind and
began tickling her. She started to wiggle, which made
her laugh at the same time. Of course, she was not
going to let him have his way. She suddenly turned on
him and began giving him some of the same treatment.
They both ended up flat on their backs on the bed.

"Ok, enough of that. Would you like to hear the rest
of my dream?" Mac thought ‘This is not the way I
wanted to say how I feel’ She looked at Harm’s blue
eyes and saw pain where there should be happiness. He
nodded so she would continue. "Harm I don’t want you
to feel any worse then I know you are. But I’ll
finish. We were embraced, and you told me that you
loved me. Then that is when the dream turned for the
worst. The sky turned black, and it started to rain.
The ground got muddy, and we fell. I got a grip on a
rock, but you let go of me. I was about to tell you
that I loved you before this happened, and as I went
for your grip, I barely got your hand. However, you
were at the edge of the cliff hanging on for dear
life. Then I lost your hand, and you fell to your
death with out ever knowing how I felt." Mac threw her
whole body into Harm, and started to cry again. She
spoke so softly though his chest and the tears.

"I don’t want to lose you ever! I love you so much,
but I can’t stand this waiting anymore. I know that
you have demons that are haunting you, but we can work
though it together. Harm, please?" She gazed at him
with longing eyes. She was so tired that she closed
her eyes.

"Mac, don’t fall asleep." But it was too late. Her
even breathing indicated that she already had, and
that made him feel kind of guilty. He wanted to tell
her what he felt, but she was gone now. At least he
had more time to think now. He gently scooped her up
in his arms and placed her under the covers on his
bed. Then he got in and wrapped his arms around her.
He glanced at the clock - it was midnight. He had too
many hours to think about all of this. ‘I don’t want
to loose her in anyway. I can’t dream of not having my
best friend, my true love, in my life. It would be
like some one pulling my heart out and stomping on it
a million times. The pain would be worse than I feel
now. Yes, I know there is a chance of losing her if I
get with her.’ He paused in his thinking and looked at
the sleeping beauty at his side. He had never had an
angel in his bed. He brushed the hair from her face
and kissed her so softly that he could barely taste
her sweet lips. He looked at the clock again and this
time it said that it was 2 am. 

‘Damn, where did the time go? That’s it I can’t stand
not being with her anymore. I need her as much as she
needs me.’ Harm lay there for a while more before he
looked at Mac. He still had his arms wrapped around
Mac, but all of a sudden she started to struggle. She
screamed his name out and was crying. He tried to wake
her up.

"Mac, wake up! You’re having a nightmare." He shook
her some until it woke her up. She opened her eyes to
see that she was on Harm’s warm chest. He was still
alive which made her so happy. She buried her face
into his chest and just took in his smell.

"Are you ok? Please don’t tell me that it was the same
dream. Twice in a row is not what I want you to go
through." He wrapped his arms around her back and held
her.

Mac didn’t say anything. "I have made my mind up. Me
not wanting to be with you is not getting us anywhere.
We both know how we feel about each other. My brain
keeps telling me that both of us don’t need any more
pain, yet we both still have so much heartache from
not being with each other. I don’t want to lose you
ever. I love you so much, Sarah. Please don’t ever
leave me. I would die a million deaths if I didn’t
have you in my life. That would be far worse than not
being together." Mac looked up at her love. She smiled
so huge that the whites of her teeth were showing in
the dark. She didn’t let him say anymore. She leaned
in and kissed him with so much passion that it would
have sucked up all the air in space. 

"I love you, too." Mac said as she broke the kiss.
This time he leaped in. He started to place small
kisses on her face. First on her forehead, cheeks,
nose, and finally her mouth.

"I love you so much." Harm said as he kissed the life
out of her. He placed the tip of his tongue on her
lower lip. She opened her mouth to let him enter her
soul. This led to Harm kissing her neck, then some how
it got out of control. Neither could keep their hands
of each other. One thing led to another, and before
they knew it, they were both totally swept away by
their mutual passion for each other.

Christmas Day

Harm and Mac were so involved with each other that
Harm’s parents really didn’t see them much. However,
on Christmas day Harm did go out with his stepfather
to get a final gift for someone. Mac opted stay with
his mom, and they had a girl’s day out. They had a lot
of thrills. Mac, however, was thinking about Harm and
the first time they did the sweetest thing two people
can do. They had shared their souls with each other
and showed each other how much they loved each other.
All she wanted now was to spend the rest of her life
with him. They had talked about moving in together
when they got back home. They were going to find a
nice house to live in.

Finally it was Christmas morning, and everyone was
unwrapping their gifts. Mac got a watch from Harm’s
mom and bath soaps from his stepfather. She was so
happy to have a family like this. She had never had a
Christmas like this when she was a little girl. 

Then it came time for Harm’s gift. He handed her a big
box with a card that said he loved her. She kissed him
on the lips and started to open the gift. After
tearing through the paper and opening the box, there
was a smaller one. 

"Harm, what is this?" She asked as she was opening the
next one.

"Just keep on opening," was all he said. This
continued for about 5 more boxes, each getting smaller
until she finally got to a small blue box. As she
opened it Harm got down on one knee and glanced up at
his lover and soul mate. She opened the box to find a
ring. "I love you with all my heart. You are my soul
and without you I would die. I would lose a part of
me. Would you do me the honor of becoming my wife?" He
said as he took the ring out and placed it on her
hand. 

"Of course I will." He got up and kissed her. That was
the best Christmas Mac had ever had.

 

The END